That one day in school

Okay, so I remember that one time in school—oh wait. I haven't introduce myself, how disrespectful of me! My name is Teja and as you can see in the picture above, yeah, that is everything about me. You see, I am an overthinker. Even if my answer is correct I overthink and take like 1 whole minute to finally stick to ONE answer. Sometimes my brain keeps thinking about the same thing again and again, like “What if I’m wrong?” or “What if there was a better answer?” Even when the teacher already moved on to the next question, I’m still thinking about the previous one. That’s just how I am.

Now, that one day in school, it was a devastating day for me. During my humanities class in school, my “enemy” to be exact tried looking at my tablet to see what I was doing on it after one of my classmates blamed me for using my device for games when I wasn't. I was actually doing my work like everyone else, but somehow they still tried to make it look like I was doing something wrong. It was really annoying because I was just minding my own business and focusing on the lesson.

She kept trying to look, and when I hid my screen, she made fun of me. I didn't know until my besties told me. They were telling me that she said, “She tries to act so tough but she can't! She tries so hard to be funny but she can't! I wonder how people like her has friends. It's concerning!” When my friends told me what she said, I felt really upset and angry at the same time. I mean, who even says things like that about someone? If I had heard it directly at that moment, I probably would’ve been so mad that I would just tell her to shut up immediately.

One time she took way too far, she tried exposing my secret! Good thing she didn't remember it, if not I would be embarrassed coming to school! Seriously, I would’ve been so embarrassed that I wouldn’t even want to show my face in class. Luckily she forgot what it was, which honestly saved me from a very awkward situation. Still, the fact that she even tried to do that made me trust her even less than before. Well, that's just how she is.

I felt annoyed of her and her friends, constantly mocking me and annoying me. I was so pissed I almost did both physical and verbal violence. My friends were able to stop me at least. They told me to calm down and not get into trouble because it wouldn’t be worth it. Looking back, I guess they were right, because fighting would only make the situation worse. One time in a group chat, they were even talking bad about my friends! I literally sent a picture to them! I wanted proof that what they were saying was wrong, and honestly it made me feel better standing up for my friends like that.

I really can't stand her! I always see her mocking my friends and I. They are all like annoying. Every time I see them whispering or laughing, I sometimes feel like they are talking about us again. Maybe they are, maybe they aren't, but it still feels uncomfortable. I wish they weren't so mean to the people around them you know? School would honestly be a much nicer place if everyone just respected each other instead of making fun of people.

Other than that, they purposely make me do things for them when I am done with mine! They even take my homework to copy it. It's honestly very unfair because I worked hard on it and they just want the answers without doing the effort themselves. Good thing I tell the teachers and was able to take my homework back. After that, I started being more careful about who I show my work to.

I just don't like them. I hate them. I absolutely hate them, no offense. If I didn't have a position as a class captain, I would've told her this to her face: “I’ve heard better insults from a toddler. You’re going to have to try harder than that if you want my attention.” I really would you know? But since I am class captain, I try to control myself and be more responsible, even if it’s really hard sometimes.

In the end, that day in school taught me something important:even though some people can be really mean, I am lucky to have friends who support me and help me stay calm.

I realized that not everyone will like me, and that is okay. What matters more is staying true to myself and focusing on the people who actually care about me.