Kayla McIntosh
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Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )
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Word of the Day: 頭痛
I woke up with a complete migraine and the shits. Which was kind of good because my diet hasn't been going very well. I do look slimmer in the mirror, if I look at my belly and stuff.... not so much my arms but, it shows on the scale I have gained 2 lbs which is making me feel so many ways.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 水瓶座
I woke up so early this morning. My mind feels empty compared to the chaos of yesterday in my mind. I can tell when my mind/bipolarness is affecting me when my notes get all jumbled. Luckily it was just one page but, I can't afford to channel all the different spirits hovering over me. Maybe I am all clear this morning because I saged yesterday? This morning, I am just by myself, listening to Jimmy on Youtube.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 敵. Content Warning.
His face glowed in the dark. I wondered if it was from radiation or he is just some sort of starseed. In the dark, his face changed so many times. I saw so many things in the dark. It was like communing with a djinn. All I thought was, it is better to be connected to him. I saw the faces of the past, maybe faces of the future? Really, what is wrong with a handsome man in my bed even if his spirit might not be human? I too also feel my bloodline... This time it was different. He used to fuck me so hard it would hurt but, we just melted into each other this time. He gave me so many kisses.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: はっきり
I am thinking about the last person I was intimate with thinking, who was that for? What was that even? " It's just a fantasy." He said it himself, I was just comfortable for him but I don't think he would've really chosen me if he had better options. It was obvious every time he ran out.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 警戒
I am not sure what the last conversation I have meant. It was a constant repeating of " There's no particular meaning. " I think I can't accept nihilism, somehow that saddens my heart. Sometimes we fall into sadness but I don't believe in living there. We have just as much freedom to leave it at any time. I am currently listening to a woman going about taking action which gives me a little hesitance in actuality, but I accept the light resistance to the willing of giving into my desires.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 砂時計
I woke up at 2:56am, I felt pretty energized and healthy at that time but for whatever stupid reason I felt it wasn't a good time to wake up so, I went back to bed and woke back up around 8am and feel like shit, a complete headache and intestinal pains all day.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 雪
It was a hot night. The unbalanced tocking of the ceiling fan. Him raping me in my own bed. I have little to no energy to get up. My vagina sore from hours and hours of penetration. My nerves the next day were completely shot the next day. I slept most of it off. All the pins and needles throughout my body. I offered him my energy so it makes sense that it took quite a bit. I don't think I saw good in him, I think I saw the evil exactly and felt pity for him.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 石
My mom came home, in a huff. She is too stupid to really follow through with anything. I am pretty sure she doesn't care about her boyfriend if she just abandoned him. Unless he showed his true colors and she had to go. Either way I am glad she is safe if that is the case.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 無意味
As I am writing this, I am thinking and trying to transmute what is going on with my life. Missing passwords, constant hacking attempts by family and strangers also trying to find their way into my story, but I still have the pen, I chose that when I decided that I wasn't going to die that day.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
